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Jun 08, 2023

Ephesians 6 KJV 10-13

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11 Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the Devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

The Dream

When I was 7 years old my family moved from Houston to a rural acreage in the country outside Plano, Texas and it was like another world for a child whose only experience of nature had been a postage stamp of a back yard in the suburbs of Houston. We soon planted a garden, had a flock of chickens, and I was in what I thought was Heaven. At the front of our sizable vegetable garden and by the entrance to the chicken yard, against all odds, a peach tree soon came up from some discarded seed. This quickly grew into what might be called a large peach bush because it was never pruned, just left for nature to do it’s thing.

In time this “bush” was producing peaches that were smallish but of excellent quality. It became an object of fascination for me. In the spring it would be covered in pink flowers and abuzz with bees. Then came the massive amount of small fruit that my mother made into fine, spiced, pickled peaches.

As this tree was growing so was I and the tree was like a symbol of all that was right with the world. When I was about 11, one day I was drawn for some reason to pull one of the dusty family Bibles off the bookshelf in the den and it fell open somehow to The Book of Revelation. We had just started attending church again around this time so maybe that’s why I did this. As I read I was absolutely terrified and I think traumatized by what was there. My mother tried to assure me that everything was okay and that I shouldn’t be worried because the time was far away for those things.

I think this went on for 2 or 3 days with me being freaked out by what I was reading and my Mom trying to calm me. Then came the most vivid dream of my entire life…..

This was a dream like no other before or since. It had the crystal clarity of reality about it and I can remember every instant of it until this day. In the dream I was standing by this peach tree and all the colors were like one of those old technicolor films like Gone With the Wind. There were large, ripe, beautiful peaches and it was also blooming and covered in bees doing their thing. The tree was buzzing with life as I had seen it so many times before.

I reached into the tree and picked a beautiful, flawless looking fruit which I gazed at as I walked. Soon I noticed there was a small flaw on the side of it. It was a hole. As I studied the hole my perspective suddenly shifted and it was like I had shrunk to the point where the hole became more like an entrance to a cave. Down inside I could see there was some kind of worm which was consuming the entire fruit from the inside out. It was strange and terrifying. In that instant the worm became aware it was being watched and I snapped back to a larger perspective where I was viewing the hole while holding the fruit but still very close up. In an instant out popped this “worm” but it was now jet black and looked more like a dragon. This black dragon roared a mighty roar as it gazed at me and shook its head! In that instant, though I should have been scared out of my wits, I reached down with no hesitation and grabbed this thing by the head, drug it out into the light, threw it down and stomped on it. Then I woke up…….

I may not have been afraid in this dream but it scared the living Hell out of me when I woke up. It had been conveyed to me in this vision that the peach symbolized the actual state of this world and that I was indeed living in “that” time. After this I was too scared to look at a Bible for many years and largely avoided the entire subject of religion. I tried not to think about any of it but the memory was never far away.

It took me many years to finally start coming back to God and face whatever the truth was. By the 90’s I had a nagging feeling that things were far from right and I started to dig and research.

The Big Awakening

By 2014 I had been trying to figure out what was really going on for years and was an avid internet researcher. It almost began to feel like I was being pulled along, shown what I needed to see. God had blessed me, and that’s all I think it is, I have no ego about it, with an extraordinarily high IQ and the ability to just let myself see whatever awful thing there was, process it, connect the dots, and move on. A worthless gift unless shared with others. I had stopped being afraid to see anything that I needed to see to figure things out and what I was figuring out was that what the Bible refers to as the Beast system was already well established and had been rolling forward for centuries. The separateness we see in the world now is just an illusion that’s only going to be used long enough to “seal the deal”. One of the big problems now is people, for the most part, will not let themselves actually see what’s right in their face. Its why millions upon millions of people all over the world just unquestioningly rolled up their sleeves and took “vaccines” that were designed to be poison. Its why they had already been trustful enough to take all the previous jabs de jour and subject their small children to the very worst of it. This was all while the signs were everywhere that it was ruining these children’s health and their lives. There is always a steep price for that kind of willful ignorance and always those happy to exploit that.

In 2017 I had joined up with some of the best truth researchers on YouTube and it was like God had opened the floodgates. It was a wonderful community, like a brotherhood (with wonderful sisters too!), but it was almost too much to process. It was becoming more clear to everyone that the elite families on this planet had turned the entire world into their own, sick, twisted, occult, freak show. We were realizing everything in the media and especially all “news” was completely scripted. I began comparing all of it to the melodrama of Vaudeville and the silent screen. I even started doing vids in flickering sepia tones and silent era piano music to try and encapsulate how I felt about it. I began to specialize in picking through all the obsessive use of numerology, astrology and occult symbolism in what we were seeing. This understanding is something I have found severely lacking here on Substack, as good as some of the writers are. This is something I hope to add to the discussions here. You Tube began to become untenable by the end of 2018 and so full of agents. The truth is largely dead there now. Even comments are heavily censored.

This is my first post here and I have gone on longer than planned already. I am going to end this by putting up links to a few of my previous investigations on You Tube. This is the kind of material that had all of us going through the looking glass back in the day. These vids are the best way for people here to see what we were seeing and will be the foundation of what I plan to do here.

This first one was my reaction to the goings on, on the Korean Peninsula in 2018. In this vid you will see the long history of Masonry there and have a tour of the insane and shocking “sacred geometry” of Pyongyang. The city is overlain with a Masonic 47 degree compass combined with a pentagram. In North Korea they’re already living Klaus Schwab’s wet dream. I think it’s the most Kabbalistic and Masonic place on Earth. North Korea is a sneak peak at what they have planned for everywhere in time.

youtube.com/watch?v=TNbS3ln5SMs

In this next one I and another vid maker called Chuck P combined resources to do an expose on one alleged victim of the Parkland, Florida school shooting. Chuck already had strikes and I thought the material he’d found spoke for itself in such a way that I could just present it without commentary and it would be clear. The thing is, when you can show there are big problems with one part of the story, relating to one victim, the rest is also very problematic. Our old friend Trump is the actual star here…….

youtube.com/watch?v=WipmwSff4eA

The last of these today, (its late), will be a vid I did showing the best evidence I’ve seen presented anywhere of who might fit the bill for being the actual, planned, Antichrist. Probably not who you think. As an aside, the second symbol on the lamposts at Buckingham Palace turned out to be the Vesica Pisces. Chuck jogged my memory.

youtube.com/watch?v=hXwYG7WiZyY

Sadly many of the fine comments from the time are long gone. The comments and entire threads go when channels are taken down. I hope to have many fine discussions here and hope people will not be shy. The comments are always the best part! I have many more stories to tell and hope to see you here. This Substack will always be free. I never did any of this for money. Please keep yours or give it to someone who really needs it. Best wishes till next time. EDIT: the links above that are not working are working in my comment below. Still have some things to learn here.